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“Continue to unfold. Find your worthiness in the learning and unlearning. The breaking and the healing. Find peace within your broken pieces and be made whole.” 
― Minaa B.
There is nothing to be fixed. You are already whole. You are simply peeling away the layers to your inherent wholeness. Sometimes you hit a really thick, tough-hide layer that has been there for a long time. It fucking hurts to peel that one off. But you do it, bit by bit.

Just be here. Just be here. Just be here.

Just show up, every day. Honor where you are at. You are doing the best that you can, I know you are. Just breathe. Just be here, sweet, beautiful one. Surrender. Life has got you. The entire universe is holding you up effortlessly, and is rooting you on.

 Be here now. Exactly where you are. Don't wish you were somewhere else, more healed, more free. More like someone else. You are right where you are meant to be, right now. Trust the process.

  Every moment of your now is creating the wildly beautiful future that your heart so desperately longs for.

  The paradox is, that when you get there, you will realize you were already there. Right in the thick of it. Be here now. It is breathtakingly beautiful. Yes, even the pain. It is like a life line to intimacy, to depth of spirit. It is what will ground you in your highest highs.

 Yesterday I participated in a yoga class outside near a lake. We explored yin and yang. The lake happened to be close to the home of my early childhood, way out in the bush. I had not been out that way in many years. As I was lying in the savasana at the end of the class I began to weep. I was lying on the uneven ground, the sun seeping into my soul. I looked up into the sky through my wet eyes and saw the clouds, I smelled my early childhood there. 

 I felt the heaviness, but I also felt the healing. I have come home, come full circle, to complete the cycle of healing and freedom from the roots up. Afterwards, I jumped into the cold lake, washing and consecrating my body to  bind this experience.

 There is nothing to be fixed in me. I am already whole. I just peeled away a tough ass layer, there near my roots. There where it all began. And I welcome this process.

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